lucky!

Been blessed with weekend offs this time.At last,makakapagsimba na ako!

:D

Next sched gonna be my VACATION LEAVE PART I. I just cant contain the excitement..too excited!argh!

imissYOU

Ive been randomly browsing friends' fb walls.I came across my brother's that made me miss him.:)I delve into his post that goes:

1 day tinanung q ang isang baliw,
"what is greater , love or brain?"

sumagot sya na tumatawa..

"i lost my brain because of love"

BUT

"i lost my love because i follow my brain"..

I miss discussing  nonsense with him.He throws me trivias which i barely answer.He let me watch movies i love and read wisdom quotes from his inbox.I miss him.I miss making sutil with him.We're all grown-ups now.And to top all the reasons,I miss making him cry like a baby!:D

 

scarredHEART

One day a young man was standing in the middle of the town proclaiming that he had the most beautiful heart in the whole valley. A large crowd gathered and they all admired his heart for it was perfect. There was not a mark or a flaw in it. Yes, they all agreed it truly was the most beautiful heart they had ever seen.

The young man was very proud and boasted more loudly about his beautiful heart. Suddenly, an old man appeared at the front of the crowd and said "Why, your heart is not nearly as beautiful as mine."

The crowd and the young man looked at the old man's heart. It was beating strongly, but it was full of scars. It had places where pieces had been removed and other pieces put in, but they didn't fit quite right and there were several jagged edges. In fact, in some places there were deep gouges where whole pieces were missing.

The people stared -- how can he say his heart is more beautiful, they thought?

The young man looked at the old man's heart and saw its state and laughed.

"You must be joking," he said. "Compare your heart with mine. Mine is perfect and yours is a mess of scars and tears."

"Yes," said the old man, "yours is perfect looking but I would never trade with you. You see, every scar represents a person to whom I have given my love - I tear out a piece of my heart and give it to them, and often they give me a piece of their heart which fits into the empty place in my heart, but because the pieces aren't exact, I have some rough edges, which I cherish, because they remind me of the love we shared."

"Sometimes I have given pieces of my heart away, and the other person hasn't returned a piece of his heart to me. These are the empty gouges -- giving love, is taking a chance. Although these gouges are painful, they stay open, reminding me of the love I have for these people too, and I hope someday they may return and fill the space I have waiting. So now do you see what true beauty is?"

The young man stood silently with tears running down his cheeks. He walked up to the old man, reached into his perfect young and beautiful heart and ripped a piece out. He offered it to the old man with trembling hands. The old man took his offering, placed it in his heart and then took a piece from his old scarred heart and placed it in the wound in the young man's heart. It fit, but not perfectly, as there were some jagged edges.

The young man looked at his heart, not perfect anymore but more beautiful than ever, since love from the old man's heart flowed into his. 

*I have read this story way back college days.I even attached this story to a birthday card i gave to kenji(yes,big smile!:)I love the thought in it!

settingPRIORITIES

"Karissa,pag di ka busy pasok ka sa office,kakausapin kita."A haughty line which only means one thing,YOU DID SOMETHING WRONG,again!Amidst the toxic duty this morning I bravely faced her and asked,bakit po miss?"

This is all about my saturday issue.When I didn't go to work because mark met an accident.Even if I called to inform, still I am seemingly effortless afterall.I decided that morning not to go for work to assist him in the hospital.Its past two when we arrived home and raining heavily outside.Im in makati,and will travel to sta.mesa.I called again if its ok to exchange duty with gemma.i thought it was all well,hindi pala. :(  She expressed hers a I expressed my side.

I understand.This is all about setting priorities.But between work and him in that situation,I will choose to be with him,NO DOUBT!!I choose staying with him rather than soaking myself to work(doing it almost 6days a week)and what is one day di ba?And it's all-wrong to her eyes!I give a DAMN this time..During my birthday,anniversary..I dont request any special offs ,but with this,they don't even understand me."Boyfriend mo palang siya.Buti sana kung critical siya eh sabi mo galos lang namn pala."Precisely,but i consider a loved one as part of my family..and will Never exchange the sake of my family for work.NEVER! I am not you,you were not me.I respect you.But still,im just an unreasonable amateur in the field.Add irresponsible if you want.I may not be able to change the rule, but i wont let that rule change my values either. I own my decisions because before i say a No or a yes,i think not just twice.Just as you did but still,we were not exactly alike and im less than perfect.Anyway,You can never please evrybody.Its just a waste of time.I remeber a friend once advised me,Kung di mo alam susundin mo,follow your heart but take your mind with it.Choose whatever will make you happy. I DID.


On the other  hand,I appreciate the advices.When i say,Thank you miss,naapreciate ko po.I mean it.
I really appreciate this lines.


*Be strong karissa.
*Wag mong kalimutang magdasal.baka nakakalimot kayo.
*Presence of mind.Hindi mo pwedeng paghaluin ang trabaho tsaka ang emotions mo.Igather mo muna yang self mo bago ka go ulit."
*Nireready ka lang ni lord sa mas malalaking challenges along your way!
*Ibenta nyo nalang yung motor.
*Ikumusta moko kay mark.sabihin mo magpagaling sya.

I smiled.I understand her point.She understands me.I appreciate.
You made my day,miss!Mixed up of feelings!

I remember this story which is quite my guiding principle in life.:))



Imagine life as a game in which you are juggling some five balls in the air.

You name them--work, family, health, friends, and spirit, and you're keeping all of these in the air.

You will soon understand that work is a rubber ball. If you drop it, it will bounce back.

But the other four balls--family, health, friends and spirit are made of glass. If you drop one of these, they will be irrevocably scuffed, marked, nicked, damaged or even shattered. They will never be the same. You must understand that and strive for balance in your life.

"You will soon understand that work is a rubber ball. If you drop it, it will bounce back."
:)

Smile though your heart is aching!

I am not fine.Straight and simple.I acknowledge this rare feeling which is embracing me as of the moment.Ive been challenged this past few days.I dont wear that usual smile on my face,i give a sigh instead.But still,there is  so much to Thank God for.God loves me this much.:))

"Ate,naaksidente daw si kuya Mark."This is the shocking saturday morning news i received from my cousin.With this straighforward thought,I am seemingly naive and insane at the same time.We rushed to MMC,i opted not to go to work yet i still manage to call.(IT IS A MUST but still there is a story behind it!)Thank God Mark and Cris are well except for few bruises and wounds in their arms and knees.

Behind this,God still made a way to bring back that genuine smile on my gloomy face.

*We maybe moneyless this time,but life isn't worth 13 thousand after all.Thank you Lord for the second life.:))

*Thank you Lord for good souls,Thank you for gemma,for sacrificing her duty for me.:))Im still blessed!

Thank you for the lessons learned especially the lesson of:SMILE though your heart is aching!

angles of thanks!

God gave you a gift of 86,400 seconds today. Have you used one to say “thank you?-William Arthur Ward

The word Thank you is one of the heart- melting phrases i appreciate in my life.When i pray i said Thank you Lord,yes as simple as that.There is a great force in every thank you's I received from my patients.It is indeed heart warming.I received our "thanksgiving bonus"lately from MVP.I planned ahead to buy books,pants and a bag.I only bought one on the things i mentioned.Instead I treat my cousin shamae for dinner.I decided to surprise Mark around 10:30pm last night.I bought greenwich pizza which he's drooling over this past days.I surprised him this time(youre reading it right,this is once in a blue moon!)I searched for Hanston building where he worked and luckily the cab driver knows lourdes school.:)) This is around 11:30 last night(nice view of the moon outside.:)) We searched along this tall-storey building leading us to nowhere.We feel like so sleepy from a tiresome walk.But the love is so insisting this time.(not-so-me).That SMILE is so rewarding.He said,"speechless naman ako.Thank you.We hold hands.:D

This past days i learned  the angles of saying thank you.That little sense of gratitude enkindled long lost appreciation.Love is a two-way street.It wouldn't work if you only knew to receive,sometimes it's better to give.:)Not just in love but at work as well.:))

Take a split of your thousand given seconds to say/act the Thank you's within you.:))

lessons for monday!

Noah's Ark :  Everything I need to know, I learned from Noah's Ark .

 

 

 

ONE:  Don't miss the boat.
TWO:  Remember that we are all in the same boat!
THREE:  Plan ahead.  It wasn't raining when Noah built the Ark.
FOUR:  Stay fit.  When you're 60 years old, someone may ask you to do something really big.
FIVE:  Don't listen to critics; just get on with the job that needs to be done.
SIX:  Build your future on high ground.
SEVEN:  For safety's sake, travel in pairs.
EIGHT:  Speed isn't always an advantage.  The snails were on board with the cheetahs.
NINE:  When you're stressed, float awhile.
TEN:  Remember, the Ark was built by amateurs; the Titanic by professionals.
ELEVEN:  No matter the storm, when you are with God, there's always a rainbow waiting.

I should have learned the ninth.Lessons to ponder to start your week ahead!happy busy monday!:D

The rebirth

Our Lady Lourdes Hospital wrapped with blue lights 

Yesterday is the inauguration/foundation of Our Lady Lourdes Hospital.I witnessed the transformation so as they term as metamorphosis of OLLH.Since I'm on duty yesterday and spent 16 hours straight  again at work,I/We never felt the celebration pero they gave us food naman so it is still okay!As I gazed back on the new facade of  the hospital(the first one who entrusted me to practice my first job),Im exceptionally thankful at napadaan ako to submit my fresh na fresh resume.Such a blessing!












After the first-ever non-toxic duty we managed to take our witty poses in front of the newly renovated vision-mision corner.Thanks to miss cordis(one of the big bosses) for taking the picture! :D

(L-R)  Ate Cathy(seksitary),Miss Bessie(PM director),Miss Melot(bloodbanker),Miss tess(night duty),Miss Faith(night duty),Me(nakikipose lang),Gemma(phlebo)

Who's cheesee? :D

Last duty while waiting for the integra (chemistry machine) to release the results,Ms Cora's book the word in other words pulled me magnetically enticed again...As I flipped on the pages I read this cheeseeYy story that made me smile.:D

Three suitors were asked by a girl to use LIVER and CHEESE in a sentence.

     The first one cutely answered,"I love LIVER and CHEESE."Not to be outdone the second emphatically said,"I hate LIVER and CHEESE."And the third one stepped forward,looked at his two rivals and with a wink said,:"LIVER ALONE,CHEESE MINE." :))

Another cheeseey story :D

And yesterday,I was surprised when  Mark dropped by the laboratory with goldilocks' rice and dinuguan(one of my favorites) and a piece of cake(which im craving of).:))

Who's cheesee then??

:))

Its been 4 years!

Lately ive been busy and yes i know,Im a little late on the upkeep.July 10,2007:Its been four years since i told him,"I love you too" (uncertain that time for bits of reasons).It has been a very long hard four years and I honestly never expected us to make it this far. Our relationship is probably one of the oddest ones I've ever known of.

For the past few days,our relationship is peachy on the surface.Maybe not the happiest of our anniversaries since Ive been spending my straight 16 hours duty last sunday,sadly!And what keeps me the saddest??He didn't even fetched me from work,no phonecalls,no greetings.Im upset!I wrote a sad note and told my cousin to please hand it to mark.The whole day of 10..HINDI KAMI NAGKITA. That night I cried my heart out.Am I that little worth,for four years???Due to anguish,i change my status on FB as SINGLE and posted a sad note of letting go of the relationship.I instructed my cousin not to open the door when mark knocks.



Yesterday morning,july 11 around 4:00 am..Someone's hugging and kissing me. My cousin forgot what i told her last night.It's mark with his anniversary gift..Holding my hand and putting a watch on my wrist.(That made me realize to carved out a liitle of my TIME for our long lost little talks and hanging outs)I suddenly forgot about the my anguish last night and asked him:bakit nagyon ka lang..nakikita mo ba tong mata ko,ansakit! He answered "sinadya ko yun,to surprise you.Im still upset.:D Do i have a gift for him??NONE.that made me this guilty.I planned to pick some pizza at shakeys but i  didn't. MEAN?yes!

Hours ago,Ive been browsing our old sweet pictures from the past.This made me realize how far we've been through.Im reminiscing our oddest love story started with friendster.The impossible made possible.I never imagine myself falling in love with this guy.Lots of nonsense fights in betweens but of course i remember how we laugh,dream and grow together.That made me letting go the hardest.
Despite of our demanding jobs and busy scheds,I hope we don't forget to set aside a piece of our TIME(the most essential i think!)



Yabi,pa,mahal, Happy anniversary!Thank you  and I LOVE YOU  SO MUCH!<3

“I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me; love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you. :D

Note:when everything's on the roughroad,keep reminded  with the pictures beside this long meaningful thought. it means a lot that made me hold on.:D

FOUND!

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I found this hearty PBS picture from kuya olive's wall taken by ate mafe(classmate).This reminds me of this thought:YOU CAN FIND LOVE EVERYWHERE.:))<3

FYI:that heart-shaped cell is a MONOCYTE.:)) correct me if im wrong..(heheh!)

bookwormish

Last week,ive been craving for a good book.Me and mama hit national bookstore to satisfy my craving.I bought with me bob ong's stainless longganisa.It took me one night to read(hehe!)the whole book and made me crave for more.Actually I have his books AbnkkbsnplaAKO?,Bakit Baligtad Magbasa ng Libro ang mga Pilipino,Ang Mga Kaibigan ni Mama Susan...pero lahat pinahiram ko  and the bad side,walang nagbalik.All I have for now is my new Stainless Longganisa that somehow inspired me and continuously convincing me to be a writer or most probably this time to be an avid reader as i go back through the pages of this book.Even if i don't have copies of the rest of  his books,i have read them all(thank you to my friend dawn pepot for kapitan sino) and the rest, i don't remember whose books we're they..And of course i should have thank fully booked and national bookstore for allowing me to read even if i will not buy.:D And i forget,Thank you for BobOng for his worth-reading books!Macarthur and Ang Paboritong Libro ni Hudas(You're next in line!..Im just waiting for our rumored-bonus!)


I am so inspired with Stainless longganisa's last paragraph:

"Hikayatin mo lahat ng mga kakilala mo na magkaroon nang kahit isa man lang paboritong libro sa buhay nila.Dahil wala ng mas nakakaawa pa sa taong literado pero hindi nagbabasa.Ayos lang lumaki ng lumaki,magpatangkad,tumanda nang walang natututunan---kung puno ko.Pero bilang tao,may karne sa loob ng bungo mo na nangangailangan ng sustansya.Maraming pagkakataong kinakailangan mong sundutin.At sa bawat sundot,tulad ng sundot-kulangot mas maigi kung may kapakipakinabang kang makukuha."

At the end of the day....

...I learned

1.Today,I have more than 2"fall-in line moments/mahabang pila",thus in real life the phrase"wait for your turn."I learned to wait patiently.

2.Today,I proposed a break-up the second time.We talked our hearts out.I gave up.I'm happy no more.Missing element is TIME but LOVE was still there.I learned,that if he loves you he'll never let you go.He does.Kami parin.

3.Today,mark sneaked out from work for us to spend my OFF together.We decided to watch TRANSFORMERS(absolutely breath-taking and hearbeat-skipping!) at Shang(mall nearest to his work).We ended up arguing AGAIN..I learned..that at the end of this messy day...this message:"I love you.Thank you,enjoy kahit medyo tense.Mwah.Anong gusto mong ubong,uwian kita maya.",made this day worth smilin.And to tell you honestly,i got quite teary-eyed habang pumipila for tricycle.:))