Afraid..

4/18/20

Its almost 12noon,and I need to catch some sleep for my night shift later at 5pm.I have this little separation anxiety from my baby who is playing in the sala.Played with him for 3 days and here I am trying to shut my brain to make it work later.How I wish I can also stay home just like most of the people around the world.But like a double-edge sword,I need to put my labcoat on and save lives..quietly and mostly unseen.I tried to close my eyes in our dark room.That the only thing I can hear is the tick of the clock.For the first time,Im afraid.. 

of what?

of the dark?

Last set of my duty was hell after the raging storm that toppled down trees and shut the electricity and internet down And it only means we have to do everything manual in the lab.Imagine the chaos?

And then here's the dreaded TRAUMA ALERT!!!I need to rush to ER with a  cooler of Onegs!The jam-packed room is in panic trying to save the life of a Jane Doe from a car wreck.Transfused 2 bags and tried to revived her..but its too late 

and she didn't make it.

Went back after an hour to pick the cooler  in a room beside a dead body.And guess what,i vomited after.Thought Im over it..

But when i tried to sleep today in the dark..

I feel afraid..

of the dark?

..of life that is too fragile

and can change in a blink of an eye!

God,make it a better day!For me and for everyone around the world. ♥️