What love looks right now

I read this from Lucy Gomez' column,and I want it to quote as it is :

"I know not all people dream of and believe in lasting love and happy-ever-after, and by saying that I am not smug nor do I think we are so much better people than most others because that is what we are enjoying in our relationship now.  But given all that I have experienced, the good and bad days in my marriage all in, I do and I will because I have every reason to.  I have 10 years to back me up, I have the same 10 years to carry me through the next 10, 20, 30, 40.  Yes, even if we continue to be our flawed, imperfect selves.  The ties that bind us are strong, and shall continue to be, as long as we never forget to love and stay in love.  Love simplifies a lot of things.There has never been a day that I wasn’t grateful that we found our way to each other."

Most valuable lesson

Today reminds me of Sir Ferrer.He's my first year professor in Inorganic chemistry back then.I would never forget his teaching antics.I still vividly remember him with his thick glasses and black backpack.Out of all the great mentors I had,  I learned this valuable lesson from him:
" the one who is gifted more,serves more." I never truly understand that,pero while walking on my way home this afternoon..life reminds me of him.
Flashback,I remember his rule that the Top 10 of the class quizzes,will give up their calculators for those who dont have.As an  eager student  and grade conscious as I was then,I am one of those who took his exam calculator-less!At the back of my  mind,how can someone who sucks in number will give up her calculator for the sake of those who dont  care to even bring one? But as always,life is unfair!haha!
I did microbio shift today,alone.So I did the work of two persons since its a holiday.Do i sound complaining?Not really,I'm used to already. I dont give a fuck already to something you cant do something about.So,I came home dead tired and just sleep.That's why Im still up at 1:30AM.

I never thought the the lesson Sir Ferrer wanted me to learn when I was 16 years old,will be applicable 10 years after..
Ayoko na mainis kaya siguro my mind reminds me and I give in with the idea that|:
"The one who is gifted more,serves more."

 PS:I inserted pictures as a good reminder how fresh we look like at that time. And I must say,its when I met few of the truest friends I have!♥️
Hahaha!Nostalgia!Goodnight!

When life gives you lemon..

Sometimes,when life gives you lemon,you are damn sick!

Im on sick leave today due to this nasty combo of cough and colds.Cut some lemons and a drop of honey to soothe my itchy throat..
The only good thing about it,is I can write about the myriad of thoughts trying to mumble-jumble  on my mind. I am filled with thoughts lately and is brimming with many little stories.. but  no single train of thought, nothing that comes together cohesively. And as usual,Im tired from an 8hr routine shift!

But can I say that I am just really been so exhausted the past few months?For some reasons,I feel like Ive been working so hard,and I do not say that lightly.As much as I want to be positive, life pushes me to deal with the negatrons.Yes,I must say that a good cry can help!Angry?No.More of being disappointed,I guess.Well siguro totoo nga na youll just end up really disappointed if you think people will do for you as you do for them.Totoo na, not everyone has the same heart as you.I think I learned a lesson or two.And as I always tell myself: "dont sweat the small stuff."

On the lighter note..

I truly appreciate being married at this point.(haha!)Because no matter how tired I am at work..I have someone to tell how bad the day was..yung feeling na may kakampi ka lagi.I got someone who will do the laundry,cleaning and cooking for me when I feel like I dont want to.I dont need to sugar coat things,there are times that I still nag him when he's obsessively overdoing DOTA.But,nothing more.I am thankful that he patiently deals with my bad tantrums and dramatic hormonal surges!I am grateful for giving me back massage after a busy shift.Now I understand that youll get to know more of the person when you get married.
(And we celebrated our 10th year anniversary last July..but sadly,my request for an off was not granted that day..but look at those bright roses!)

Im still not giving up on our American dream.I know that there is nothing,absolutely nothing that you cannot pray for and talk to God about.Im lifting this up to Him!And I trust him for this,as always!

I never allow hate to overpower the things I am grateful for.Actually,I started my bullet journal and tried calligraphy.Instead of counting the persons I hate I added a page for the persons Im thankful for.(pero may page din for the persons I hate.*evil laugh*)
I want to write what on the next page :
*car lift driver-helps me photocopy my docs for cheaper price
*Dawn- for trusting me
*Kenneth-for helping Mark pulled the AC
*Ota-someone who I can talk to anytime about random things
*Ibenand Kriz-for the red ribbon errands
*Keithy Bear-for Korean goodies
*Mama&Papa as always
*

And the list continues..





A peek to some of my favorite pages.I started collecting cute washi tapes too.(hahaha!)
And I want to learn how to draw or paint!Trying some doodles too.

           

That's it for now,I gotta catch a good sleep dahil magduduty na naman ako bukas!I hate getting sick but  Im thankful to stay at home and wrote all these thoughts down! Goodnight!