as my heart talks

Ive been through hell lately.Been through the hardest and the most painful part of my relationship.Kaya pala tayo nasasaktan kasi nagmamahal tayo ng totoo,oo yung tipong hardcore at give it all.Some will say,STOP and simply let it go when it hurts too much.Matigas ang ulo ko eh,and yes,sabi nga nila"SHUNGA SHUNGA ako".Maybe they were right because they don't want to see me crying like a loser!The time when the only right thing is to burst out and breakdown.Yung ioown mo yung pain  through crying.The good thing with my heart is,it clings to  the thin line of holding on.Of fixing rather than throwing.Of loving, forgiving and holding on to the idea of "last chance".

I am really touched with wisdom  thoughts coming from my friends during my downfall.I'm soo blessed with sensible and smart asses.These were some of their quotables.

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go. Things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right. You believe in lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself. And sometimes, good things fall apart so better things can fall together."- ate Ehra

" When someone walks out of your life, let them. There's no use of in wasting your time on people that leave you. What you make of yourself and your future is no longer tied to them. Yeah, you may miss them but remember you weren't the first one to give up"-ate nia

"You'll never be strong until being strong is what is left for you to do.its your choice to be stupid... I as once stupid enough to believe her lies... but I learned and decided to live smarter. I was once bullied and decided to fight... You and only you can save yourself from your own demons."- ang tong

"mam estal..lahat cla let go! haha. for me follow ur heart! kung anu sa tingin mo nafeel mong gawin,un ung gawin mo..haha pareho taung stupid pag dating jan eh.. cgru nga natuto na cla to let go eh,xempre from their experience eh.. if kaya pang ifix, then ok. pero pag naulit n nmn ang scenario na yan, naku, let go na tlga! ."- gem

Special thanks to Gem for giving me that tight hug when all i have to do is cry and look stupid.And Ate ehra for  her counterattack wit and standing on the idea of letting go.And to my bestfriend Jomar,who  stayed with me late night to chat my heart out.And of course to Mama and Papa who loves me more than any man in this lifetime.And of course for the ears that never get tired listening to my emo-dramaic stories.I feel incredibly blessed!

For now, let me embrace my own demons.still,i believe with the worn-out "last chance".If something can be fix,why not fix?Giving up and letting go will not always be the right thing.We forgive because we love truly.In the end,we don't get lose in loving too much.