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Dear blank page,

I woke up this morning with a heavy head with aching muscles.It's my off after a week-long overwhelming schedule.It's the gruelling combo of working hard and studying harder.And been pressured with the list of documents I need to accomplish just to take the exams.To which i hate the most.STRESSED!I even buy one tablet of stresstab just to ease a little of stress (even if i know that it aint work that way!)will help in a way psychological maybe.Eats breakfast while watching cartoon (the one  who's bida is IPO boksingero..hehe!) He was like undergoing a tough training for his fight with Miata(something like a counter attack technique).God gives me an eye opener that just like anybody else who wants something great to happen,I need to work hard for it.Then there goes the cliche i posted on my wall ,"NOTHING WORTH HAVING COMES EASY."There are days that I want to give up sa pinapanindigan kong INDEPENDENCE.Been working away from home,take charge with the bills,do the laundry,clean  my unit,cook , do the budget and other grown-up must do's.i thought it was as easy as it seemed but no,its not!Im learning everything on my own.The way I see myself years ago.Standing on my own feet once i get a degree and proving something to myself.*deep sigh!* I miss my family sooo much and Mark.Things were a lot easier when they are around.The good side is,I am learning beyond my limits and well,I can say im growing up.Not the easy way but through one bumpy road of trial and error.Writing to a blank page is my sweet escape for a never ending hard punches life has to offer.I have to brace myself and be back on track.I will be there in my own pace in God's perfect time.Im still  HIS determined trainee.And for that..

I will.. STUDY a little.WORK hard and PRAY harder.

*smile*